Michael's 'Deep Thoughts'

Searching the scriptures
Hearing the stories
Divining the great mystery
Jesus is Divine

Is the divinity hidden by flesh?
Is flesh an illusion?
Those who see the Son see the Father
Is this secret knowledge?

Philosophy teaches God is transcendent
Flesh cannot touch the divine
What is pure is protected from the profane
There is the secret of God hiding in flesh

Gnosis grows
A little knowledge mixed with much speculation
People whispering half of the secret
Decrying the other half as a false rumor

Some knew a little more
Realizing that Jesus was human
There is a great mystery
What does it mean to be God as well as human?

Are we so mistaken about humanity?
How does such a treasure not destroy its earthen vessel?
Did our Lord change the nature of Humanity through nativity?
Or were we sanctified since Eden?

Nativity is re-dedication
The lamp burning longer than the oil allows
The body is no longer the temple to a man made idol
The Holy place is restored with God’s presence

Though the temple be destroyed
God remains faithful
We are pilgrims who walk to ruins
Yet we find God dedicated the world around us

God is born Emanuel
God has not abandoned us

This weeks readings had a clear theme: “Pastors are people.” It seems like it should be obvious, as often people use Priest, Curate, Preacher, Pastor, Rector, and Parson as synonyms. Professional church ministry is one of the very few jobs where a common job title is properly translated “Person” — how is it we forget? I hardly need to appeal to my readings to say that forgetting our person-hood creates many problems.

I guess it is because we live in a culture that experts us to be persons on our own time. Whether we like it or not, the majority of us are ruled by the time clock — yes, there is something freeing about clocking in and out of work — but, a factory worker must lay aside what is personal for several hours at a time, and instead fulfill his function — there is time to focus on personal issues off the clock. Unfortunately a clergyman never clocks out. Even on scheduled days off, there is a sense of being on call (unless the faith community is blessed with other people who can cover the needs of pastoral care). If we are used to being a person ‘on our own time’. If we lack of a sense of own time we might forget to take it.

Another reason seems to be that the general population forget that pastors are also people. A Friend’s minister from Guatemala named Carlos Moran once attended a business meeting where a monthly meeting was discussing which side to take in a regional controversy. Two well known and well respected ministers were fighting. While Carlos was only visiting, he felt it was important to weigh in and he told a story.

When farmers plough their fields, they set up some sort of landmark so that they could keep their eyes on it and plough straight rows. One farmer went to plough his field, and set his eye on something white in the distance. He followed it carefully moving forward until he found that it was a sheep. Looking back, he saw that the row was far from straight, because as the sheep wondered he followed it ploughing a crooked row. Because he failed to do the work correctly, he was forced to level the ground and plough again setting his eyes on something that did not move.

He went on to tell them that they were arguing about which sheep to set as a landmark. No matter what they chose, they would still be using a sheep as a reference point, and either way they would fail to plough a straight row, because sheep move randomly. He suggested that they find a way to fix their eyes on Jesus, instead of sheep.

I notice something important from this story. Both of these sheep served their local worship communities in some sort of pastoral role. When we name someone pastor, the pastor is in some sense both shepherd and sheep. There is a danger of the congregation elevating the pastor to something beyond a person to their own ruination — yet, if they are looking for someone who is more than human, they might hire someone who has forgotten.

I still don’t have the answers, but I have questions:

What does it mean to be sheep and shepherd?
How can we be true to self while accomplishing goals set by others?
How can we teach people to look to stable landmark instead of another sheep?
How do we make enough time for self and family when demands are greater than total time?

We seek beauty where we are
But there seems so little time
Scheduled until we are blind
The heart forgetting poetry

We learn to put away stories
All things but facts becoming childish things
We memorize names and dates
We forget about history

Reading poetry after poetry was forgotten
Looking for facts in the metaphor
Finding details, but missing the point
For we put our stories behind us

Yet sometimes we must reach out and find poetry
For some things cannot be reduced to equations

One of my teachers asked us to consider this question before the first day of class. Considering, I am forced to admit that: “I don’t know.” I have interviewed for the position of pastor, I have taken classes on giving pastoral care, I have read books, and I have read scripture — but I cannot see how everything ties together. Read the rest of this entry »